Usually, when we talk about suicide we say those four magic words: "just ask for help". But Honor Eastly knows it's not that simple. She's been there and back, and now has years of phone recordings and diary entries, from the inside.

These recordings form the basis of this podcast, No Feeling Is Final.

This is a show for anyone who's ever wondered if life is worth living. And for anyone trying to better understand their friend, partner or kid, who's wrestled with these feelings themselves. At times heartbreaking, and desperate — but also darkly funny, and charming, No Feeling Is Final is a story of difference, identity, and why we should stay alive

Just a heads up, this show touches on some heavy lifting feelings territory — including what's it's like to feel so hopeless that you want to die. It's not graphic — it's not that kind of show. But there is some swearing.

Also — this is a memoir show. It's about Honor's experience trying to figure out some big stuff. So of course, it's only one person's story.

This six-part experimental memoir, No Feeling Is Final was named one of the best podcasts of 2018 by The Atlantic, TIME, and The Financial Times. It also won the coveted Director's Choice Award at the Third Coast International Audio Festival 2019. In 2025, Apple named it a 'Series Essential', recognising it as one of the greatest achievements in podcasting.

Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.

How's Honor doing these days?

For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-update

Find out more about the Big Feels Club here https://www.bigfeels.club/about-big-feels-club

Need support?

If you're feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.

In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14

or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.

For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.

Credits

Honor Eastly, Writer and Presenter

Joel Werner, Executive Producer

Alice Moldovan, Producer

Graham Panther, Co-Writer

Russell Stapleton, Sound Engineer